Stubborn

I find it's always hard to predict what you'll feel like doing at the end of an unexpected 13 hour workday. Are you so exhausted that you go home and crash instantly, only to wake up to go right back to the work you just left? Or maybe you take some time to knock back some beer to numb yourself for a bit?

I had that day yesterday.
I found that I can be a bit rebellious with my time, and I'm not easily willing to give up my day if I don't feel I was able to accomplish anything for myself. So I definitely didn't crash.

Left work at 10PM.
Went home to a few beers and 2 hours of playing guitar. New songs sound great on fresh strings.
I should have gone to bed at that point. But at midnight I started in on my laundry predicament that's been building for some time now.

By 12:30AM I should have gone to bed, I was feeling the drowsiness of the beers. But instead I changed clothes and went running. Under the full moon complete with the strobe illumination of heat lightning, the air felt like it could rain at any second. Instead it only offered the fresh smell of ozone. Finding that much energy, after you think you've expended it all is rejuvinating.

By 1:45AM I was back home and once again should have just laid down and given in. Instead I decided to shave, iron some shirts, and continue with the laundry.

By 2:30AM I was okay with the idea of letting go of the day.
I'm not too tired today, I feel good.